When I started applying for online freelance writing jobs I was enthusiastic and thrilled, it seemed to me that everything was in my reach and soon I was going to touch the sky. But now everything is becoming blurry, confusion and desperation is surrounding me. After numeral refusals, humiliations and mental sufferings I feel myself tired. I am wondering now whether it is the right option for me or should I leave all this at once and return to my former dull useless life, I am becoming very desperate and this blog is the right place to through all of my depression and cloudy thoughts out of head.

Do any one care?

Usually my morning start with reading newspaper along with having my breakfast. it is very rare that we get any kind of good news while breaking our whole night fast. latest shock or if I say an expected news which I got today was of  Surver uncle of Shumaila (widow of faheem killed by American spy Raymond Davis) being forced to eat poison tablets by intruders in his own house at Faisalabad Pakistan. Shumaila herself committed suicide earlier because she was sure that justice isn't going to be done to her murdered hubby and sooner or later the convict will be released. according to newspapers shumaila was raised by her above mentioned uncle after death of her parents along with her brother. when shumaila attempted suicide after her hubby's murder, surver was very depressed and he had declared in front of media that if his dead niece didn't got justice and the victim is released despite of all the evidences which are against killer,he will commit suicide too.
                 we Pakistani nation are perhaps one of the greatest surviving nations on the earth at this time. we know we aren't safe on our homeland,we aren't safe even in our homes, any time we might got killed in any suicide attack at any public place including our educational institutions because EXTREMIST think that we are American lobby supporting their kufrana(evil) objectives which we are taught at universities,schools and colleges. we are killed sitting inside warmth of our houses when we are having usual gossip with our family members having our meal with our loved ones sitting by our side and suddenly a drone bless us on our heads and every thing is gone.......this happens because America THINKS that we are terrorist and our little kids are dangerous monsters who will turn in to BIG blasting bombs someday and will explode their kingdom.
          CRIMINALS enter in our houses make us hostage,give us poison and runaway happily because their is no one who ever will get even dirt of their feet. this another murder attempt of relative of faheem(killed by American spy) raises many questions in ones mind. what is going on around us every one knew. only God knows when we will act against it. I think after when all this happens to any one close to us(God saves us from evil hands).

going on

in today's fast paced world our senses are tired and exasperated. we all are in constant race and our home is the place which has become not only our resting place but also our working office. it is the place which helps us relax, spend some time with our
family.our home reflect our self it reflect our personalty our way of living.different peoples keeps their home according to their taste. gardens are an additional factor of our homes.garden give our home  soothing effect to our home and refresh our senses.
                 it is not necessary to have a big empty space in front or behind  of your home, you can utilize small spaces knock and corners by placing different size pots of indoor plants including flowery plants.those plants not only tranquil your mood but also put a good a impression on your visitors, keep them in your dining room your drawing room kitchen and even in your washroom just keeps small points in your mind and juggle the available space and size of pots you are placing.keep some pet repellent plants in your little garden in order to protect them from your  sweet puppy and lovely cat.
                  our home is our comforter,its just like open arms of our mother ready to embarrass us any time.keep it clean and up to date.enjoy your life with your love and your kids.


  

CALL FOR JUSTICE

“Widow of the man killed by an American committed suicide”. All of the media attention is currently focused on Raymond Davis case. The girl who committed suicide spoke her last words to the press that she believes the culprit will be released. I know we receive a huge amount of money from American government in order to boost our economy, where that money goes either God have the information or our government. But does that mean we are now enslaved; they can kill us on our own home land? Pakistan stands as a front line state with America from the onset of so called war against terror. When bush government raised the slogan “with us or against us” after 9/11 attacks, Pakistan was one of the most important allies. What we lost and are still losing because of declaring ourselves on the side of America is as bright as sunlight. They pay our government bundles of dollars in return (read “aid”), but the question arises where that money goes. Perhaps I should lock this subject in some closet and just talk about the monster that killed our men on our land. It is neither new for us nor for American government to kill our people on our own motherland and we are cursed that we got especial government which can’t raise their voice against their master.

 This call for justice is addressed to peoples of America who always raise their voices against the calamities done by their government whether it was when bush declared so called war against terror or is present day situation. The case of innocent people killed is now in your hands. Earlier we lost Dr Afia on the name of justice. She was abused in jails of America and later was sentenced for life in the prison. Now when the culprit is an American why all the rules are suddenly changed. American embassy declared Raymond (or what ever only God and American embassy knew his actual name) as a member of counsel now he becomes an employee of American embassy, they want this culprit back by hook or by crook. Men killed by him are gone but what about those left behind, their family members…

              Pakistan is poor country our economical conditions are critical. Peoples complete their education and start roaming in search of a good job ends up having a job much lower then their educational achievements. Average income ranges from 8000-15000 Pakistani rupees. There is only one person in the family of 8-10 peoples who earn and support the whole family. Can any one tell me what is the future of those families whose sons are brutally murdered by Raymond-or whatever his name is. Who is going to educate their kids? We all know that sooner or later Pakistani government along with American government will invent some flawless plan to give the culprit safe exit to his country. Government of America had already played their card they say that if Raymond is not released immediately they will stop sending us economical aid. They might give the effected families handsome amount of money in the name of compensation and make out of court settlement. But can they give those orphans their fathers back? Can they return the twinkle in the eyes and the zest to live life in their widows, those parents who are busting with tears more often in front of camera remembering their brutally murdered young sons are crying for justice. In my opinion if the gold buried in the caves of Africa or the wealth of whole world is given as compensation the wound created by Davis in their hearts can’t be healed

                  Think once should this man be released who had the audacity to kill innocent people on their own land and runaway. I put this case in your court please do justice.

LEONARDO DA VINCI

                                THE GREAT MAN

Leonardo Da Vinci is one of the greatest men throughout history. His full name is Leonardo Di Serpio Da Vinci. He was born in Vinci a province of Florence Italy. Born on April 15,1452 and died on may 2, 1519. He was illegitimate son of a notary Piero Da vinci and a peasant women caterina.

             Leonardo is mostly famous for his paintings but his expertise poly math, anatomy, geology and botany. He was a great musician, writer, mathematician, cartographer and scientist. He was a writer as well as a sculptor architect.

             Most of his paintings are acclaimed worldwide. MONA LISA is no doubt the most famous painting on the face of earth at the moment , they call it LA GIOCONDA in French which means the laughing one. It is considered that the fame of Mona lisa is because of her mysterious smile, people see the painting and love to judge her smile. The Mona lisa is painted in sfumato style of painting which means to vanish or to hide in to shade. In sfumato style a veil of smoke is created between the subject of painting and the viewer adding some brightness to black areas and hiding some bright areas. Leonardo was master of sfumato style. Painting of Mona lisa is a mere thirty one inches by twenty one inches, smaller even then the posters of her sold worldwide. It is present in Louvre museum Paris. Mona lisa was stolen twice most recently in 1911,two years later it was discovered hidden in the false bottom of a trunk in a Florence hotel room. Leonardo claims it as his finest accomplishment and carried it where ever he travelled.

             THE LAST SUPPER is another master piece of Leonardo. It is a fresco on the wall of Santa Maria Delle grazie in Milan. The decaying fresco portrayed Jesus and his twelve disciples having there final meal before the death of Jesus. The last supper has been subject of many paintings of which fresco made by Leonardo is best known.

           THE VIRTUVIAN MAN is most celebrated sketch of the world. It is also work of Leonardo. He created this master piece in 1487.it is printed everywhere from T shirts to pads of mouse. It consist of a perfect circle and square simultaneously in which is inscribed a nude man stretching his arms and legs. The drawing and text are sometimes called the canon of proportions or some times proportions of man. It is stored in gallrie dell`academia in Venice Italy and like most of paper works it is displayed occasionally.

                        Leonardo`s studies in science is as innovative and impressive as his work in art. He recorded all his experiments in notebooks of about 13000 pages which fuse art and naturalphilosophy(the forerunner of modern sciences).these journals contain some mundane as well as intriguing information. He noted lists of groceries as well as designs for wings and shoes for walking on water. There are compositions of paintings, studies and details of Dropa , studies of faces and emotions, architect designs. He maintained these notebooks while travelling through out his life. These journals are mostly written in mirror-image cursive. His friends distributed many papers from his work of different shapes and sizes between themselves, these papers later found there way to major libraries and museums in the world. Codex Leicester is the only major work of Leonardo in private hands owned by Billgates, displayed only once in a year in many cities of the world.

         Leonardo was a high class renaissance, outstandingly beautiful and was vegetarian. He used to buy caged birds and released them. He was accused for sodomy along with three other young men in 1476. He had no close relationship with women except Isabella d`estate. He made her portrait which is now lost. He is the best painter throughout history only Michelangelo is considered as his rival. According to Helen gardener an art historian `` his mind and personality seems to us super human and the man himself mysterious and remote``. Where as Marco rosi says `` there is much speculation about Leonardo, his vision of the world is essentially logical rather then mysterious and the empirical methods he employed were unusual for his time``.

                Whether he was logical or mysterious we don`t know we just admire this genius and his beautiful paintings of which many are now lost forever.

                        Many have a trade of delusions and false miracles deceiving

                                                            the stupid multitude.

                                           LEONARDO DI VINCI

WHO THE HELL ARE THEY?

From yesterday I am getting calls and messages from unknown numbers. these peoples had made my life like hell. I don't know why some monsters like these thinks that they have the right to ruin the life of others. why don't they just try some thing productive in their leisure times and make themselves count in those who are worth talking about? why don't they just mind their own business? Because of them my mobile is becomming a nightmare for me, when it rings I shudder thinking that it will be a call/message from one of those idiots. I know they doesn't even bother to think once how their activities are effecting the bearers.
       If some one from THEM reads my blog I request them please stop making our lives miserable because this behaviour of yours fits in the category of harassment and I won't tolerate all this to continue. 

The day when she came in my arms for the first time is perhaps one of the most celebrated days of my life. she was very beautiful, more beautiful then my imagination, I used to see her in my dreams all the way long during pregnancy and even before the start of pregnancy. In society I belong the only core duty a wife  can perform after having children is to raise them and do house hold things....can you imagine how boring life could be with such society and so obnoxious peoples surrounded by,,,
             I desperately want to do some thing different, some thing refreshing and new... but but but but......
              why a big BUT always come in our way when we try to do some thing we love....
perhaps I m the luckiest person on earth because God had bestowed me some of his best est things he had given to his creatures......

     MY PARENTS... They are a beacon of life for me which always shows the right path towards the right direction....
      MY HUSBAND... He is the most important and influencing person in my life at this moment. He really helps me to do whatever I WISH.... He is the most lovable person I had ever met.

      MY CHILD,,MY BABY...... I love her so much I think no mom in the world can ever love her baby as much as i do her.... She is happiness of my life.she is very naughty and very intelligent i wish she gets  EVERY THING from her life which ever she desire.....

                            I LOVE YOU ALL