When I started applying for online freelance writing jobs I was enthusiastic and thrilled, it seemed to me that everything was in my reach and soon I was going to touch the sky. But now everything is becoming blurry, confusion and desperation is surrounding me. After numeral refusals, humiliations and mental sufferings I feel myself tired. I am wondering now whether it is the right option for me or should I leave all this at once and return to my former dull useless life, I am becoming very desperate and this blog is the right place to through all of my depression and cloudy thoughts out of head.